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30 Days of Meditation – Faith & Water

I’ve learned there are days where things just won’t work out. You can attempt to meditate and you just can’t do it. It’s part of learning and being human I suppose. This time around I target Faith and Water as my topics and here are my experiences.

Faith

I sat down like normal and turned my timer on and began to relax. The entire time I was trying to focus I was just hearing random things in my head. It was like a storm of mind that I could not calm. I tried for 10 minutes and attempted to focus on Faith and got nowhere. My mind was just not able to clear. It’s my first failed attempt in the 30 days, and I knew it would happen sometime. I might retry this focus later on because I was really excited to learn about it.

Water

My next session was to focus on Water. It was far better, stranger, and more interesting. I cleared my mind and was in focus this time and heard – “Lifeblood, Important, Study it“. I just got a feeling that water was an important journey to take here.

Ideas kept flowing in my mind. “Energy, Amplification“. “Light does not pass through water“. At this point, a visual of that physics experiment with the hanging balls was shown. One ball fell on one side. It caused the ball on the other side to rise. “Light bounces out the other side“.

From there I hear – “Water separator generates electricity“. I have no idea what this means. I know it is something new though, not something we have currently. Not like a hydro cell or something. It is something entirely different.

I asked, how to begin to study water, “Place water in you positive hand, the connection is key, move it“. At this point I was getting a lot of information quickly and lost a lot of focus. I am a rookie at this. There was something said about maybe creating water in the other hand, but I did not understand.

Thoughts

Sometimes you just fall down. The key is to not get frustrated, it is not your fault. You don’t want to force meditation, it is something that has to happen in a natural way. The session after my first failure was interesting. It gave me things that I know I do not understand. The key to the journey is to not stop walking. Take some breaks along the way to enjoy where you’ve made it to. I look forward to some of my next sessions and wonder what all they might bring.

What are your thoughts on failed meditation sessions? Do you learn from them? What do you think about that stuff on water? Such a simple focus and such sci-fi stuff came from it, so cool.

I Fail on a Different Scale

Posted on August 29, 2015 by magicrat_larry

I’ve always been amazed how people tend to just shoot for the minimal they need to have to be successful. I watched many people shoot for a very low bar and fail at it. It is sad, because they just don’t understand that everything fails. We are people, we are big screw-ups. We fail at everything to some degree. So if you shoot for the minimum you need to succeed then you will not make it there.

The unobtainable is always the plan. How does this set me above the others we just discussed? I fail on a different scale.

What do I do? I shoot for Perfection. If I need to make $1 a day, I shoot for $1,000,000 a day. I shoot for goals that cannot be hit. The unobtainable is always the plan. How does this set me above the others we just discussed? I fail on a different scale. Let’s keep running with the money example, if I need $1 a day, but shot for $1,000,000 and failed like all people do, but get $1,000, it is a miserable failure when you look at what was being shot at. If you look at what I needed though which was $1 shooting for $1,000,000 made me get 1,000 times my need.

See If you shoot for $1, it’ll be just as hard as shooting for $1,000,000 in our example. You have to think about the same amount. You have to come up with the same amount of ideas. You have to implement the same amount of money generating things. You simply make different decisions that allow for failure to still reach what you absolutely need.

Stop looking small, shoot of the largest thing you can think of. Don’t just make a game, make a hit. Realize that you are going to mess up everything, that is a fact. If you give yourself room for that failure, you will be surprised what success comes from it. It’s a mindset change. Don’t change the amount of effort you put in, change the scale by which you try.

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Am I a Failure, or No?

Posted on August 28, 2015 by magicrat_larry

Fear of all this work not paying off is looming. As we push to Kickstarter and Steam Greenlight it does cross my mind that people may not support us or even know about us. I’ve been working hard for a long time now to try and make that not happen. I suppose the fact that you are reading this is a sign that my fears are at least not 100% solid.

It will be a slightly crushing blow if our efforts do go unseen or even worse un-liked. Well our best is all we can give. I do appreciate everyone for supporting, following, and just being there through our hard work. Game development is not hard, the workload is the hard part.

Holding down the full-time job and performing on game development at the same time will kill a lesser person. I have the largest amount of respect to those who have made it before me and hope like heck that hard work pays off and I follow them in stride. All of your support is appreciated and there is a much longer road ahead. I’ll keep digging in as long as I keep getting up in the morning. I love this stuff.

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